May 2010
3 posts
March 2010
7 posts
a rare march..
why is it you are the only thing making me happy?
and we can close our eyes, and be there in an instant. and we can stop our hearts, but the blood flow is so constant. i constantly think of you….and the things i should have said to you.
if i could take back the last six years of my life, and give them to you, so you could lengthen your life that much longer, i would. if you’re asking why six, it’s because i’ve spent the last six years without you, and i wouldnt want to take back any second, minute, hour, day, week, month, or year i’ve had with you.
February 2010
1 post
January 2010
15 posts
i’m not sorry i met you, i’m not sorry it’s over, i’m not sorry, there’s nothing to save.
and the worst part is, before it gets any better we’re headed for a cliff; and in the free fall i will realize, i’m better off when i hit the bottom.
think of me when you’re out, when you’re out there i’ll beg you nice from my knees. and when the world treats you way too fairly, well it’s a shame i’m a dream. all i wanted was you. all i wanted was you.
there you stood, holding me, waiting for me to notice you.. but who are you? you are the truth, out screaming these lies. you are the truth, saving my life.
let me take this time to ask you, inform you, of all the things you did not know. i’m sorry i can’t be the cure for your life. you were always by my side. life spent without rain, you will always be, the heart in me, you will always be; the past, the love, the memories…
you gave me butterflies, at the mailbox.
what have i gotten into this time around? i know that i had sworn i’d never trust anyone again, but i didn’t have to; you had me at hello.
now when i caught myself , i had to stop myself from saying something that I should’ve never thought of you, of you. but i don’t know what i want, no, i don’t know what i want. you got it, you got it; some kind of magic. hypnotic. you’re leaving me breathless, i hate this, i hate this, you’re not the one i believe in… no, i don’t know what i want, but i...
December 2009
27 posts
not everyone is willing to forgive you. please get a hold of yourself before i have to walk away for good. you can’t live your life in a coma, not expecting to wake up one day in the coffin you built with your bare hands and think you can just walk away. i’ve been over this a thousand times before, and still, you are in the wrong. if you keep this up, i won’t be around for...
thank you for the worst christmas of my life.
i wish we could open our eyes, to see in all directions at the same time. oh what a beautiful view, if you were never aware of what was around you. and it is true what you said, that i live like a hermit in my own head? but when the sun shines again, i’ll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in. sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole, just like a faucet that leaks and...
it’s so hard for me to let go of you.
i forgot how it felt, to be living out the life of someone else.
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i love youuu!! thank you so much for my sj cd in mint condition! i love LOVEE ittt!!!!